So, people who follow me on tumblr already have a bit of information, so, I'm gonna be as blunt as I was there on here.
I'm not in a good place right now emotional-wise. Some...heavy crap is happening that's probably going to put the rest of my stay at home in a state of mass tension, that will probably be carried with me back to SCAD when I go back after New Years. And being wired the way I am, I ...really
...don't handle negative environments well. ...the past 24 hours have been emotionally agonizing for me. I hardly slept last night. And today at work, a regular costumer we have noticed that I was... kind of on 'autopilot' and asked if I was okay. Normally when I'm having a bad day, I can shrug it off and tell people I'm dandy, but... I couldn't, I just...shook my head. And when he told me "it'll be okay", I almost just started crying right there in front of him. ...yeah. And I'm kind of stuck in this environment, because my sibling gets the car almost 24/7 and I basically only get out of this house when I have work. Which isn't exactly a positive environment, either...especially the late shifts.
I can't tell you guys what's going on. ...it's not that I don't want
to, because, God knows
I just want to cry to some of you right now, but, I can't. I've been asked to keep this...private. Until it's sorted out. Which is going to be a while. Which means that, for those of you who talk to me regularly, there will be days where I act normal, and there will be days where I'm a complete wreck. If you just...tolerate me, that would mean the world to me. It's not ANYTHING you did or said, it's... stuff. I apologize in advance if I ever just shut down on you one day.
That being said, I think I'm still in the denial stage... I'm not ready to accept stuff, and thus, I'm on--like I said--an emotional autopilot.
No one's dead or dying or sick or anything, so, don't worry about that. Just... some heavy crap.
In the meantime, I don't know if I'll finish the Christmas comic that I really wanted to get done, but, I will continue to try to get those art trades out, and as many as I can before the end of the year.
But yeah. For those of you who cared, just...wanted to give you a head's up. ART TRADES SO FAR
: Her OCs Half-Mask and Reflex
: Hestia and Rae doing something casual
: Phoenix and Phantom team-up
: Silver Wolf eating Peanut Butter cookies
: Gary and Terri
: Inside cover for her comic
: Phantom and Tsunami being awesome