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So, people who follow me on tumblr already have a bit of information, so, I'm gonna be as blunt as I was there on here.

I'm not in a good place right now emotional-wise. Some...heavy crap is happening that's probably going to put the rest of my stay at home in a state of mass tension, that will probably be carried with me back to SCAD when I go back after New Years. And being wired the way I am, I ...really...don't handle negative environments well. ...the past 24 hours have been emotionally agonizing for me. I hardly slept last night. And today at work, a regular costumer we have noticed that I was... kind of on 'autopilot' and asked if I was okay. Normally when I'm having a bad day, I can shrug it off and tell people I'm dandy, but... I couldn't, I just...shook my head. And when he told me "it'll be okay", I almost just started crying right there in front of him. ...yeah. And I'm kind of stuck in this environment, because my sibling gets the car almost 24/7 and I basically only get out of this house when I have work. Which isn't exactly a positive environment, either...especially the late shifts.

I can't tell you guys what's going on. ...it's not that I don't want to, because, God knows I just want to cry to some of you right now, but, I can't. I've been asked to keep this...private. Until it's sorted out. Which is going to be a while. Which means that, for those of you who talk to me regularly, there will be days where I act normal, and there will be days where I'm a complete wreck. If you just...tolerate me, that would mean the world to me. It's not ANYTHING you did or said, it's... stuff. I apologize in advance if I ever just shut down on you one day.

That being said, I think I'm still in the denial stage... I'm not ready to accept stuff, and thus, I'm on--like I said--an emotional autopilot.
No one's dead or dying or sick or anything, so, don't worry about that. Just... some heavy crap.

In the meantime, I don't know if I'll finish the Christmas comic that I really wanted to get done, but, I will continue to try to get those art trades out, and as many as I can before the end of the year.

But yeah. For those of you who cared, just...wanted to give you a head's up.

ART TRADES SO FAR
:bulletpurple: ~cartoongirl76 : Her OCs Half-Mask and Reflex
:bulletblack: ~WritingInTheSky : Hestia and Rae doing something casual
:bulletpurple: ~LueniTitan : Phoenix and Phantom team-up
:bulletblack: ~akrex : Silver Wolf eating Peanut Butter cookies
:bulletpurple: ~Skidzz : Gary and Terri
:bulletblack: =Catt-Nightingale : Inside cover for her comic
:bulletpurple: ~Atlantistel : Phantom and Tsunami being awesome



  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: "Rain Cloud" by Sweet Talk Radio
  • Watching: Supernatural season 2
  • Playing: Arkham City
  • Drinking: Coffee
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:iconlyndsey-writer2009:
I am praying for you, my friend! Valraevn I love you and I'm always here for you. You are an important friend to me and I care about you so much! You are my best friend, please never forget that!!
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*Valraevn Dec 23, 2011  Student Filmographer
I won't, Lynds. Thank you so much :hug:
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:iconlyndsey-writer2009:
Is there anything I can do for you? If there is, pleeeeeeeeease don't hesitate to ask. At all. Ever. I'm not even kidding. Even if you need someone to buy you coffee, I will do it for you. No joke!
I know I all ready wrote this.... But to remind you, you are very loved, cool, and just plain awesome. Ok? SO DONT FORGET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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~Sockless-Sheep Dec 17, 2011  Student General Artist
I just love you, darling. *Initiates group hug involving Jason whether he likes it or not* :heart:

~ Sheep xx
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*Valraevn Dec 23, 2011  Student Filmographer
jfkdlsjd :tighthug: Thank you allll
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*Valraevn Dec 14, 2011  Student Filmographer
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~bagoskittles Dec 14, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconsupertackleplz: I hope things get better soon buddy! Know that I'm here if ya want to chat!
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*Valraevn Dec 14, 2011  Student Filmographer
Thank you so much :hug: It means a lot. <3
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~bagoskittles Dec 14, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome. :heart:
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